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vatheon2013-04-13 05:01 pm
radiantwingedone) wrote in vatheon2013-04-13 05:01 pm
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30 - Pepe
Who: Duke and anyone ever-
When: 4/13 (After no-longer part of Host Club, at least)
Where: Library, on way to library, somewhere shady and reading
What: Duke's actually out of the house! ... and in the library.
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[ So he'd been worrying people by not leaving the house, and since he didn't have a purpose in leaving the house daily - albeit one that he'd been ignoring recently - Duke is out and about today.
Mostly to the library. Even if he had been reading at .. home, and he would just be reading at the library, clearly the change in location was going to mean something.
At least, that was his plan. Hopefully actually going out and about helps lighten worries.
... Even if he casually skirts the hostclub just for reactions. ]
When: 4/13 (After no-longer part of Host Club, at least)
Where: Library, on way to library, somewhere shady and reading
What: Duke's actually out of the house! ... and in the library.
[ Style ]
[ So he'd been worrying people by not leaving the house, and since he didn't have a purpose in leaving the house daily - albeit one that he'd been ignoring recently - Duke is out and about today.
Mostly to the library. Even if he had been reading at .. home, and he would just be reading at the library, clearly the change in location was going to mean something.
At least, that was his plan. Hopefully actually going out and about helps lighten worries.
... Even if he casually skirts the hostclub just for reactions. ]
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[ He puts the book down, although leaves it open. ]
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Would you like some company? If you would rather keep on reading, I understand.
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I am terrible at being company.
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That is alright, Duke. I will only stay if you want me to. I would not want to bother you.
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... Am not against it? Do not find to be bothering....
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.. Is it wrong to think, that if you believe yourself to be a bad person, that people shouldn't care for you?
[ This is actually the point of a great many arguments recently- ]
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Wrong? Mmm... I do not know, Duke... But I believe most of us actually wish to be loved?
[She doesn't consider herself as a good person either. But she wants to be loved.]
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I will try to think on that.
[ Because he really isn't sure what he wants from people. ]
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An nods and smiles at him.] If you would like, you can consider me your friend.
[She doesn't want to scare him.]
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... What is the feeling like?
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The feeling of being friends with someone? Or being loved?
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[ A little dryly, he adds- ]
I've had friends before.
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It depends, Duke... If you are loved back or not... It can be the most wonderful feeling or it can be very painful...
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that's lovely, isn't it. ]
Meant the wanting-feel..
[ How does he know he wants this sort of attention before it starts gouging his heart out because he can't have it- ]
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[ He's pretty sure most of it is that he misses his friend, but...
He's staying with his head and arms on the table. That could explain a great deal of things. ]
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[She remembers what is to be loved by her sister, her nephew and her husband.]
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[ That, at least, he can agree with. The feeling from being around and with Elucifur generally made him ache from missing it. ]
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Unfortunately so...
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[ Woops mood is going low and staying low. Lovely topics- ]
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I did not mean to make you sad, Duke. I am sorry.
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[ He attempts to wave off her apology. Its him bringing things up that made his mood fall, more than anything she's said. Mostly. ]