vatheon | End Trial

Who: Jade Curtiss and those involved in the recent glasses plot
When: Today, February 1st
Where: Medical Clinic
Status: Semi-open

[It's been a good three weeks since Jade's little episode on the Island. Since then, he's neither moved nor made a sound in his sleep. Occasionally, the glyphs on his eyes would glow and shift, then they would dissipate again. The glasses Guy had made were doing more than their fair share of work in keeping Jade's glyphs in check.

When consciousness interrupted an odd dream, Jade was aware he was laying down on a bed and he was stiff as a board. First came a few small noises, and then little movements that were comfortable. His fingers twitched to life, toes wriggling somewhat, and his head tilting from side to side. After a few moments, Jade was feeling like he was coming back to life, pops and cracks coming with the movements. When he felt comfortable enough, he finally opened his eyes just a bit, looking at the burred image of the ceiling and then wincing. He moved some more and made another few noises as he tried to get his body to wake up further.

When he finally opened his eyes, he was greeted by blurred shapes and lights that were far brighter than he was currently used to. As his vision slowly began to adjust, he lifted his head to try to get his neck to move, pops loudly announcing his shifts. A tired hand moved to touch his face, feeling the new glasses. Guy, his eyes...

He could only remember snippets. Some fighting, a feeling of being vaguely terrified and running; pain, cold, some faces... Peony and Guy, Orphaner and someone else he didn't know. Ky was there at some point, right? And Dist? No, that lout wasn't in the Bubble or so help him he'd finish himself.

Other than that... Where his glasses were, what had happened to him, details like that were either fuzzy or nonexistant. He'd have to do a full check-up on himself sometime. When he felt more in control. He frowned at that, trying not to think so much on that complete lack he'd had when the arte had gone out of control. Emotions, impulses, things he normally kept in check. Attacking people out of the blue was the most worrisome... How had he let it get that bad..?

He'd have to focus on being able to get up, first..]

((OOC: I wrote in brackets, but you are all welcome to do prose or brackets or whichever!))

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Well, then. I--

Do you feel better, I hope?

You seem better.

According to the nurses, I lost a decent amount of blood and my legs were infected, but they feel just sore and achy. Since I woke up, I haven't been able to do much.

[Aside from feeling trapped in his body..]

Physically, I've had better days.

Ah, I'm sorry. Would you like to talk about something? Maybe that would help.

[If it were Ky, he'd want some paperwork to do...]

I'me not one for heart-to-hearts, but if I needed one, rest assured you'd be my first call.

[There's some of the snark. It's mixed in with a lot of the fatigue Jade is still fighting through, but it's there.]

[And that makes some of the worry Ky's showing on his face fade a little.]

I see you are feeling a little better, then.

If you need to rest, I should let you.

[Jade chuckled, giving the man an amused look.]

I've slept for three weeks, I think I've had my fill.

Sometimes your body needs to adjust again... But if you're sure.

I'm sure. There are simply a lot of things I need to sort out; what happened and any ramifications for my actions that I was unable to control.

You aren't fully responsible for your own actions there. So don't be too hard on yourself.

That's no excuse.

I should have contained myself and dealt with the situation in a more timely manner.

What's most important is what you do going forward. We all mess up, but if you can learn from it and work to prevent it from happening again, that's better than simply feeling guilty.

[He he could feel so positive about it meant he really didn't understand the situation in full. Maybe it was better he didn't, Jade figured. After all, the last thing Jade needed was for everyone to know he was prone to violent outbursts and insanity because of his own actions.

He sighed, looking at a window instead of Ky for a moment as he slumped a little. Suddenly he did feel tired, and his voice reflected it.]

Yes, of course..

[Ky was a positive person in general, and adversity only challenged him to be more resolute in finding a way through things. If he was prone to violence, then he would only have to work harder to control himself.]

I'll keep praying for you.

[That was a phrase he hadn't heard in a while, and as such, he wasn't sure how to react. He looked at Ky for a moment before he nodded mutely. It was no kind of real reply, but it was all Jade could give. It was a... nice sentiment, all things concerned.]

[Ky offered a smile back, inclined his head. It was what he could think to do, the best way he could think of to help Jade. Despite what Jade had said, Ky thought he could use rest, or perhaps he'd just like to be alone to think things over.]

Can I get you anything else?

[Jade battled with himself over the want for company, and the want for solitude. It was one he wasn't accustomed to. He didn't ever really want people around, it just happened. But now, he felt like he'd slip away mentally if left to himself. And yet...

He looked to Ky.]

I can't... think of anything.

[Part of him wanted to ask Ky to stay. But... It would be selfish, that was sure. And he felt childish thinking of it.]

[Ky considered, nodded.]

I don't suppose that you'd want to join me in praying?

[He had an idea of what Jade would think of that, but faith was a comfort in hard times. If he could share that...]

[Praying...?

It'd been a long time since he'd ever prayed, and even so, he was rather sarcastic or noncommittal when he had. When he used to, it was to appease the Curtiss' on the pilgrimages. When he'd eventually been sent on one after his coming-of-age ceremony, he'd just gone from relic to relic, sitting and resting before he'd leave again.

No, any god had turned their back on Jade just as Jade had turned his back on them. respectful silence was Jade's usual response, since he never figured they would listen to him anyways.]

I'll listen.

[Ky nodded seriously and scanned his mind for an appropriate one. It didn't take too long, requests for help for other people were the sort of thing he used often.

He spoke the words clearly, without any sense of self-consciousness. He believed in the power of them, that just saying them would in fact be able to help.]

[Jade stayed silent and stared at the blankets that currently covered his bandaged feet. He hadn't heard anyone say those kinds of words with fervor in a while. In Auldrant, faith was... Well, Jade would say it was nonexistent. People believed, of course, but it was a blind, regulated faith, where the wrong people held power over the wrong amount of others.

Ky... Well, Jade wasn't convinced or particularly moved past respect for a man who believed in something so earnestly.

Jade had figured he'd stopped believing in any benevolent figures long ago.]

[That Ky has his own conviction isn't really enough for him, because he wants other people to feel grounded in that way, wants them to feel the same support and love that he does. Still, he's learned the consequences about being too passionate about talking to it to people from other worlds.

For now he'll focus most of his hope on simply praying for Jade, rather than allowing Jade to pray for himself.]

[Jade wouldn't have prayed for himself in any case. He would have sat and stewed and guilted himself into oblivion before that. Though...

He supposed it felt good that Ky cared so much for him...]

[Having finished, Ky isn't quite sure what to say.]

If there's anything else I can do, let me know.

[He hopes he's said that before, hopes Jade already knows it, but it's worth repeating.]

[Jade gives Ky a smile. It's small, but it means a decent amount coming from Jade. It's honest and kinder than Jade would turn on most.]

I appreciate it.

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