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Characters: Equius Zahhak and Gamzee Makara
Location: The Hive of Inappropriate Touching and Hugs, now featuring a Darkleer's fist-shaped stained glass window!
Time: After this thread
Style: STRONG
Status: Closed

[As requested, Equius slinks off to find Gamzee. That was a pretty embarrassing confession he just vomited out, and he really just wants to go out in the backyard and brood with the chocobos for awhile. Buuuuuut then he'd just have to talk about it later.]

[His life is suffering.]

[He finds Gamzee in their room, and stands in the doorway, leaning against the doorframe and looking nervous and impossibly uncomfortable. Also sweaty.]

Hey.

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No. I meant it.

[He sighs dejectedly, hunching down further over his knees.]

There's nothing about me that's good for filling quadrants.

[Gamzee nudges him with a bare foot, shaking his head.]

Don't say that. I done see plenty of good to all be filling quadrants with.

I can't even touch you. And now I'm too... too big, I guess. And both my matesprit and kismesis are worked up about it, and that makes me feel awful.

You just gotta practise more, motherfucker. And never did all say you were too fuckin' big. Just big. and I can't all be lying and saying I ain't got me some fear cause I do, but--

[He pauses, shaking his head. Well. No lies between them, right? That was how you did a matespritship right, right?

He spread his arms, beckoning him closer.]

Come here first.

[Equius obligingly scoots a little closer, within Gamzee's grabbing range.]

You're scared of me.

[He says it in a flat, dead tone.]

I don't blame you, sometimes I scare myself...

[Gamzee reaches for him, trying to pull him down against his chest.]

Yeah, well, you were scared of me and that ain't stopped you none.

[Equius lets Gamzee pull him down, and rests his head on his chest.]

That's different.

[Gamzee curls his arms around him, leaning his chin against the top of his head.]

You got that fuckin' right. That were way bigger than what I got myself feeling.

That's not what I meant!

[Equius stirs a little, looking up at Gamzee.]

I was scared because of something I didn't want. You're scared because of something you do.

{Gamzee tightens his arms around him a bit.]

It don't really matter, right? You were scared of some shit and we all like... fuckin' got to workin' on it and dealing with that. We can do the same with this.

... I guess.

[As best he can, Equius snuggles down into Gamzee's chest.]

Sometimes I can't believe how lucky I am that you put up with me.

[Gamzee laughs, pressing a kiss to his hair.]

Me putting up with you? Ha, more like you all putting up with me. I'm a pretty fucked up motherfucker for all I done.

No, you're not.

[Equius will deny that to his grave! ~~he kind of already did, haha... ha.~~]

You're calm and patient and accepting and wonderful.

I ain't. You seen me snap. You know I ain't alla that shit.

When you have a choice, you are.

[There. Matter settled.]

[Equius snugs a little closer.]

... thanks.

Hmmm.

[Gamzee smiles a bit, reaching up to toy with Equius' hair a bit. They hadda get this all in the open. It worked better that way. Wataru had taught him he couldn't expect him to be his moirail if he kept secrets from him, and he figures a matespritship is that same way.]

I'm like... I'm guessing I'm all kinda got my fright on for what you be fuckin' packing, but like... I ain't sure I wouldn't all not be frightening if it weren't as motherfuckin' huge. All this shit is just... it's in tents, yeah?

[There. have a cheesy pun to lighten the mood.]

[Motherfucking huge. Gamzee thinks he's motherfucking huge. Equius can't help but smile a little at that.]

Yeah, I know. It... it kind of scares me too. I'm afraid I might... that I might break you if we tried anything now.

[Well, he is!]

You always freak about that. About not all being able to touch me. But see, you're up and touchin' me now, ain't you?

This isn't the same. I'm just leaning on you right now, not... touching you. I'm not trying to do... stuff... to you.

[What kind of stuff, he's not really sure. He just knows that it would be far more complicated than the simple closeness he's doing now.]

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We ain't gotta rush any of that. We got time.

[Well, they did. Sweeps and sweeps and sweeps of near forever.]

You'll get that fuckin' strong thing sorted or I'll just up and fuckin' get strong enough to match.

[His expression is a little dreamy as if he is jut barely there to remembering something important.]

[Equius sighs, looking a little wistful.]

That'd be nice, wouldn't it? If you could get STRONG too so it wouldn't be such an issue.

I wish you could.

Yeah.

[Gamzee leans back, quiet for a few moments before he suddenly remembers. He struggles to sit upright underneath Equius' weigh, nearly smacking him in the face with one of his skin-and-bones elbows.]

Wait. Fuck. Lemme up. I remember some thing.

Huh? Oh... yeah, okay.

[Equius rolls away, freeing Gamzee, and then lays on his back, staring moodily up at the ceiling.]

[Gamzee gets up and trudges away without another word. It doesn't take him long; he only went across the hall to his and Wataru's old bedroom. It's easier to keep real important things in there. That door is usually shut after all, which prevents any accidental Darkleer Damage.

The chocobo, not the ancestor.

When he returns though, he's holding a little vial between his fingers. Lily was the best. The best.]

[Equius glances over, and he recognizes that vial. He sits up with a jolt, a wide, helpless grin spreading across his face.]

Lily made some for you too?

[Lily is the best human sister person!]