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Characters: Equius Zahhak and Gamzee Makara
Location: The Hive of Inappropriate Touching and Hugs, now featuring a Darkleer's fist-shaped stained glass window!
Time: After this thread
Style: STRONG
Status: Closed

[As requested, Equius slinks off to find Gamzee. That was a pretty embarrassing confession he just vomited out, and he really just wants to go out in the backyard and brood with the chocobos for awhile. Buuuuuut then he'd just have to talk about it later.]

[His life is suffering.]

[He finds Gamzee in their room, and stands in the doorway, leaning against the doorframe and looking nervous and impossibly uncomfortable. Also sweaty.]

Hey.

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I were just fuckin' fine without him. Motherfucker didn't all up and leave cause he were digging it. Feeling sad about that shit just ain't gonna do no motherfuckin' good.

I know you were, Gamzee.

[Equius hugs him a little tighter. He doesn't believe that, he never has, but he's trying to make his matesprit feel better, not worse.]

I'm sorry he left you alone.

He hadda fuckin' eat. Couldn't up and change that.

And he were never gone long.

[Because if you refused to count the days in between then any period could be passed off as short!]

I know, Gamzee. I know. He shouldn't have left you like that.

[Ahem...]

You know, I ain't fuckin' thinkin' I would've done any fuckin' better with him dead cause he couldn't grub on nothing.

[grouch grouch grouch.]

I never said you did.

[Soothe soothe soothe.]

[He blows out a grouchy puff of breath, leaning back more against Equius' chest.]

Aight.

[Equius pets Gamzee's hair for a bit, unsure about how to proceed.]

I never knew you felt that way about him.

[Honestly, he didn't! He always thought Gamzee loved his goat with the same zealous devotion he gave to his religion.]

[He does! Sometimes he just can't help the little doubts from slipping in.]

I... sometimes he were away a whole fuckin' long time and I started up and thinkin' stupid shit. Ain't important.

Well, if you ever want to talk about...

[Equius trails off. There, he's made the offer. Whether or not Gamzee chooses to act on it is up to him.]

He's gone, brother. Wouldn't be making no difference.

That doesn't change the way you feel.

Ain't change nothing either. Me all gettin' fuckin' down at myself didn't bring him back no quicker. Better just to forget about that then.

[And easier to just eat an extra pie or two.]

All right.

[Equius gives Gamzee a gentle, easy squeeze.]

How's your robogoat doing?

[Gamzee burrows into the squeeze, still marvelling a little at how miraculous this is.]

He been learning to honk all proper like back at me. I know you ain't dig that motherfuckin' sound none, but it still all be what wicked noise my ol' goat used to make.

[Equius nods.]

He's honking now? So he's learning things.

[He considers for a few moments.]

I haven't heard any honking lately. I don't... I don't know how I'd feel about it.

[He just shakes his head.]

Nah, it's cool. Ain't no reason to be subjecting your hearclots to that noise. You ain't the only motherfucker what can't stand it.

... does it bother Nepeta too?

[His arms tighten around Gamzee, just a little.]

Yeah. Yeah, it does. Still bothers Karkat some too, I think. Terezi damn near all broke my fuckin' nosebone over it way back.

[He cuddles closer.]

I'm chill.

I'm sorry. I wish I could be STRONGER for you and not let it bother me.

[Gamzee twists around in his arm, watching him for a moment, before he paps his cheek.]

Chill, motherfucker. It's cool. Told you I was chill.

[Equius looks a little surprised at that pap, but then he smiles and nuzzles a little closer.]

Thanks.

[Gamzee wraps his arms around his shoulders, squeezing with as he burrows close against him.]

No prob.

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