Seeing the Sights

[thekidsare0kay]

Who: Sollux Captor and OPEN!
Where: Anywhere in the city! He's had a day to come down from the high recuperate from his surgery, and is out exploring and meeting new people.
When: Today.
Style: Starting in action, but open to prose
Status: Open

[Sollux is taking his first few steps alone out on the town, to explore his new home. He arrived blind, but now has two blue robotic eyes - something he needs to have a word with Equius about - and is enjoying a bit of independence after a while of being stuck in bed unable to do anything without assistance.]

Comments

[unconchonable]

What the fuck is this entitled bullshit? Don't get a fuckin' ego because those two were waitin' for ya with open arms! Just because they did that doesn't mean I'm about to replicate the same fuckin' behawior. They are different than me, not to mention our relationship is different as well. We're riwals--er were riwals, from my perspectiwe anyway. I hawen't felt the flames of such for a long fuckin' time, while pity runs a different course all together, so I don't giwe a FUCK what they did, this isn't about THEM. It's about US!

[He's so fucking pissed right now! How dare he sit there and compare him to them? That has nothing to do with this, and while they are willing to just throw themselves at him, Eridan isn't about to do the same!]

I know you're not a sitty kismesis--at least the you before wasn't, that isn't the fuckin' issue here.

[The issues are his own feelings, conflicted how they are. But your kismesis isn't the one to talk these sorts of things out with... Except he's technically not his kismesis, right?]

Maybe I just wanted to fuckin' ease into this so it's easier for the both of us, but fuck me for bein' goddamn considerate. Thanks for the reminder such acts of unwarranted kindness are a outright waste a my fuckin' time.

[thekidsare0kay]

Both of us? [Sollux rolls his eyes, but he's calming down a little at all of this. Eridan's actually right, which is galling, but it felt good to be told he wasn't a shitty kismesis.]

You're acting like I should just wait around and hope that you'll decide - that you'll deign to be my kismesis, like I should be fucking grateful you'll even consider it. I'm just saying that I'm not going to do that. You aren't sure? Fine. But I'm not going to go on dates with you and beg and hope that you'll condescend to fill this quadrant with me.

I don't even know what 'going slow' would even entail.

[Though now that he thinks about it, maybe it's a good idea, depending on what it means. He doesn't want to disappoint Eridan. Getting dumped by him would probably be the most humiliating thing possible. And he hasn't had a kismesis before]

[unconchonable]

[Eridan narrows his eyes a bit, but at least it seems Sollux is getting it through that thick skull of his.]

And am I wrong to hold myself in high regards? I'm quite the fuckin' kismesis, so maybe I do want to make sure I'm not makin' a mistake here, maybe I do wanna test the waters again to make sure these lingerin' feelin's are what they actually are. I could just be holdin' out because maybe I miss the idea of a kismesis an' maybe it has nothin' to do with you at all. Is it so FUCKIN' wrong that maybe, JUST fuckin' maybe, I don't want to jump right into somethin' for it to not work out for either of us?

[Yeah, relationship jumpy Eridan has basically been buried a while back, he's learned not to just go for the first available thing, learned that sometimes it's better to think than to just dive right in. He wants a good kismesis, he knows he deserves one, and he wants to make sure that what he has with this Sollux is because of him and not the one he remembers before. Essentially the same person, but the memories are different. It's basically like starting all over again.]

And maybe it would include some dates, maybe some duels, y'know, the upright normal kismesis-like deal, without it bein' a totally exclusive thing till we know for sure how we feel about each other. That way neither of us are completely fuckin' committed to somethin' till we know for certain the fuckin' gut wrenchin' feelin' a disgust and ire in the pits of our digestiwe sack really is the pitchest a blacks that one could rightly muster for another brinesucker.

[He waits a moment before casting a look to the side, his flaring fins settling a bit before he speaks.]

But, if you aren't interested in this, then fine. I'll get my answer either way...

[thekidsare0kay]

[The more Eridan explains what it is that he's really going for, the better it sounds to Sollux. In fact, it's basically what he meant by getting together today, only he expected it to be worked out in a single encounter, rather than several duels.

But he's okay with this. Really, very okay.

And he's even more okay with it because Eridan actually came up with it. Eridan, who normally jumped right in the sack with anyone who gave him even the tiniest bit of attention. The whole question of whether Eridan really wants to be with Sollux is one that weighs on him more than anything else

He reaches out and tweaks that one fin he can see out of the corner of his eye, grinning.]

Okay, yeah. That sounds good. Let's do that.