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tiir rumibul; oo1

Who: Tiir and

vatheon!
When: Early afternoon?
Where: In the forest, near the lake.
Style: [I'm lazy okay]
Status: NEVER MIND this suddenly became open thanks to Cal—

[It might sound a bit odd, coming from someone who tries to be honest, but Tiir hates this curse.

... Granted, he hates most of them, but still.

It might've been fine another time, or under different circumstances. Half the time, Tiir wouldn't care if others could see his thoughts, as he'd already be saying them out loud.

With Guriko to look after, however, it's a different story. He can't afford to let her see.

... And he's not as confident as he was months ago.

Thus, his thought bubble blank as he forces himself to think about nothing, he escapes to his usual hiding place: the forest. That is, the one place he can usually count on to be unoccupied.

... Except for right now, apparently—]

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[He considers it quietly--considers the laugh, considers the eyes, considers, considers, considers.

His thought bubble is nearly quiet, merely indistinguishable murmurs lurking and nothing more.

Nothing more than a quiet, 'why not?']

...I don't know what I think.

But I know what I want. I want you to be happy.

[...a quiet breath and he looks down for a moment, and his thought bubble drifts-- 'That's all I've ever wanted, so why is it so hard for those that deserve it to find happiness...']

If you can hate me instead of...

Instead of yourself--or anything else. Then...I hope you can.

[And again, he simply laughs. Because he knows—even if he tried to hate Minato now, he wouldn't be able to.

He wouldn't be able to like himself either. He never has, even before Minato came along. Minato's merely broken down the wall he used so that he didn't have to acknowledge it.

Once his laughter dies down, he finally faces Minato, his eyes still glowing red and a smirk present on his face.]

Allow me to tell you something.

I have been taking others' lives since I was born. I devoured my way into the world from inside the womb of a human woman. I could kill a full grown man before I even knew how to read.

[Flashes of the people he killed as children appear through his bubble—people who made a move against him first, and people who were just at the wrong place at the wrong time.]

I've been killing humans my entire life, and not once did I think twice. I never thought it to be wrong to kill... until you came along. For the first time in my life, I've wondered if perhaps this isn't all right after all. If perhaps humans can truly be as kind as you've acted.

[He laughs again.]

Yet... if it's wrong to kill humans, then what does that make me, having murdered others since the day I was born? A monster, doesn't it? Just as the world decided.

[Another laugh, though this one sounds vaguely like he's crying, even though he isn't.]

At the very least, it means that I'm nothing more than a murderer, as humans always believed. So do you really think that everything will be fine merely by hating you? Do you truly believe that that will help anything?

If I choose to, then that is the same as accepting that humans are, indeed, worth nothing more than the dirt beneath my feet. I will thus render any 'deal' we might've had void and devour them as I please.

And if I choose not to, then...

[There's a long pause while Minato just listens.

And then he slowly sits up, cross-legged, and looks up at Tiir quietly.]

...I am not here to judge you, Tiir-san.

And...how you judge yourself will be more important than my judgements ever could be.

But...for what it's worth...

I still think you have the chance to make what you want of your life. If you...do not like the person you were.

Then change that person.

[... This is the first time that Tiir's ever really spoken about his feelings. It's strangely... tiring, in a way, and so, by the end of it, he's run out of laughter, run out of anger—run out of everything but the sorrow that's always swallowed up his life and a sense of brokenness that he's always hated.

Thus, this time, he smiles, as his eyes fade back to blue.]

It doesn't matter, even if I change myself. Whether I will it or not, I'm defined by these eyes. I could be exactly like you in everything else, and it wouldn't matter.

(And how I wish I were more like you—)

The world has rejected our existence. That does make it rather difficult to be proud of ourselves, for any of us. Despite knowing that it's unreasonable, that we shouldn't have anything to be ashamed about—even someone like me, who as an Iino Doue bearer has better circumstances than others...

[He looks up at the sky, still smiling sadly.]

In the end, even I'm not strong enough.

[Minato stays seated, watching Tiir's expressions, seeing his sadness and his tiredness and all his thought bubble can say is--

'this isn't fair. Not fair not fair not fair'

It's not fair. That Tiir has to go through this. That Tiir has to be like this. But--

He'll speak again. Quietly. Calmly.]

You are strong enough.

Because you told me once that you...You continue to live. Despite everything. If you can do that...then you're strong enough for anything.

The world is wrong, Tiir-san. And I know that won't make it any easier. But you should not be ashamed.

[He stands then, slowly pushing himself to his feet.]

You killed...yes, but to survive, in response to the environment you found yourself in, you killed because you were taught to kill.

But... [Heh. He looks down, a little sadly, and then back up at Tiir.] You still retain your humanity. As I would see humanity--not as the humans of your world would see it.

... Is it truly strength, I wonder?

(Desperate. Meaningless good-for-nothing everyone died because of me but if I could ask for one thing—)

Whether or not I'm deemed a person is inconsequential. Regardless of what I may be... I'll change the world, where my friends aren't even granted the right to live—I'll remake it into one where they can live happily.

(Kill however many humans I need to destroy Gastark for what they've done unforgivable can really I trust humans I suppose I am cruel after all, but—)

If I can achieve that, then I can finally say that my life has had meaning. That my existence wasn't worthless.

(And I'll even kill God himself if that's what it takes—)

[He is quiet for a long moment, thinking. And in his own thought bubble--there are similar thoughts.

Thoughts of doing whatever it takes. Thoughts of fighting the odds and battling Nyx and standing up when it looked like everything was lost--

and he nods once, firmly.]

You can do it, Tiir-san.

[...

He smiles wryly.]

It's not as if I have much of a choice. Between fighting to change things and wasting away as an outcast...

(So please, let me be alive—)

At the very least... even a good-for-nothing like me knows how to be persistent.

[.....

He considers that for a moment, slowly pushing himself to his feet.]

Then you have to admit that you're good for something, not good-for-nothing at all.

['Such a strong, impressive person, why can't he see--']

(How foolish, coming from him.)

It's hardly something to applaud over. Even an idiot knows how to be stubborn.

['...from me?']

The difference is that you aren't an idiot, Tiir-san.

That's why you fight so hard, isn't it? Because you know...

You know what happens when you're betrayed. You know what it feels like.

(Why would someone like you—)

... It can shatter people. That's why I was glad—glad to have known from the beginning that I wasn't human.

[He smiles bitterly.]

Though now I have to wonder if it was worth it, if it meant being wrong my entire life.

[He lifts his chin then, narrowing his eyes slightly.

It hurts to have to say this. It hurts so badly, and it shows in his thoughts, hurt and confusion and-- 'why does it have to be this way? Why can't I believe in these people. Why have they done this?'

Why why why why because in the end his thoughts hit a wall, and that is 'Nothing is Tiir's fault'.]

You weren't wrong.

[He closes his eyes then, tightly, because he hates this--because he's always had faith in people of all sorts and he never passes judgment but here and now he has no choice and he has to say--]

They were wrong. For what they did to you. For what they did to people like you.

For such a difference as abilities and your eyes.

[He sighs quietly, slowly sticking his hands into his pockets.]

You've fought all your life for what you considered right. You don't have to give up on that just because not everyone is like those in your world.

(Not my fault? A lie. That's a lie. Always our fault, my fault, can only ever blame ourselves—)

And yet... if not all humans are like that, then that does, in fact, mean that I've always been wrong. That I've been living a lie.

After all, that goes against what I've believed all my life.

[Images of his skills flash through, along with words (how many humans like him have I killed?), before it ends with—]

(Was I wrong about everything?)

[...And in Minato's thought bubble, those quiet murmurs that are again only half his thoughts-- 'Hanged man, hanged man--Sacrificing one thing to obtain another. Transformation. Oppression.' and then quietly-- 'why does someone always have to be wrong?']

...I don't think...it's possible to define one person by their entire race...any more than it is by their hair color...or their eyes.

You aren't wrong, Tiir-san. People have done that to you...and if I'm the first to treat you otherwise, then they should be ashamed of themselves for that.

You've been protecting yourself, and others, and so...

'I can't judge you for that, no matter what it was you had to do.']

(I'm right, so someone's wrong, the world's wrong—

But I never was right. About anything.)

[He lets out a shaky breath that almost sounds like a laugh.]

... It's easier for you to say all that than it is for me to believe it.

[....he sighs quietly, nodding.]

I know it is.

But Tiir-san...I want you to know that...

I really do think highly of you.

['The highest. If more people were like you...stronger and willing to live, maybe things would've turned out differently.']

I wish...you would think better of yourself.

[At first, Tiir just stares at Minato's thought bubble, with a single word appearing in his own.]

(Why?)

... I merely think that, since I was brought into the world, I might as well make the most of it, rather than wallow in pointless feelings.

(So what am I doing now—should never have said anything to begin with.)

[Minato closes his eyes for a moment, nodding.]

I don't think you understand just how much strength that can take.

[And in his thought bubble there are flashes of things-- 'Why don't people live' and 'Why don't they treasure what they have?'

And Nyx, towering over a fallen SEES, with the mocking-- 'Humans long for death. You have brought this upon yourselves--'

But his tone is still even.]

...So thank you. Everyone has flaws...and everyone is wrong sometimes. But thank you for being you.

Perhaps not. It's a bit difficult to take what I have for granted, personally.

(Perhaps humans do. Always fighting, always killing, always starting wars—but what everyone seems to want most is to survive, isn't it?)

[At that, though, he laughs lightly.]

... I didn't think I'd ever hear something like that, let alone from a human.

(But how many have always been wrong? Do you even understand?)

[Tiir just gets a long, steady look--Minato's thought bubble is equally quiet for the moment, thoughts muted, though perhaps some pieces can be caught-- 'more people should'.]

You're right. There's a lot...that I don't understand. About you and your situation.

'I'm trying but it's not enough, and it probably never will be--']

But. Regardless of what everyone else does--you don't take your life for granted.

And I'm grateful to you for that.

[And he half-bows, bowing his head and slightly inclining his upper body, eyes sliding shut.

Because isn't that all he's ever asked for?]

(I don't want you to understand I don't want you to read me—)

[He blinks.]

You're grateful? [...] You truly are odd.

[His tone, his expression, everything is calm as his eyes remain shut and he responds.]

I am grateful.

[His thought bubble is rather crowded now, as he casts his mind back to all of the people they had fought for who had thrown away their lives regardless, all of the loss and pain that they had inflicted on their loved ones and--]

It doesn't matter to me what you are, Tiir-san, but rather what you do.

You are living your life to the fullest...and I am glad to know you.

[It isn't his place to judge, it isn't his place to speak out against actions, it isn't his place it isn't his place because it has nothing to do with him.

But it had everything to do with Tiir.]

[... He still doesn't get it. It's so obvious to him, and so he merely laughs mirthlessly.]

Then it sounds like humans have gotten lax and become unappreciative of what they have, if this is truly impressive.

[... I am glad to know you.

How is he supposed to react to that?]

[His thought bubble and his quiet, almost lifeless tone both say the same thing.]

...They have.

['At least in my world. At least...back home.

And that's why I--']

tiir rumibul; oo1

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I'm going to pretend like I hit enter on this tag two weeks ago

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ONLY AFTER I TAG BACK

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