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[spiria]

Who: Kohaku Hearts, all of the people who offered to take up shifts watching here in here.
When: Shortly after that post, lasting throughout the next week or so?
Where: Hearts Apartment (Yuptopil Apartments, Room 103)
Style: Starting in Brackets, will match anything that's thrown at me, though!!
Status: CLOSED to the people helping her out! Thanks, everyone. ♥


[ Kohaku hadn't been doing well at all. She'd taken several hits in the span of a short time, and had now been reduced to an eerily quiet, barely responsive person. She didn't want to do anything but lay around (on the couch now, more than anywhere else ... she couldn't stay in the room she had shared with Shing anymore. it hurt too much) and wallow in her own self-pity ... and yes, when she did really think about it, she knew that was exactly what she was doing. She couldn't bring herself to really care about what she was doing, though.

So, she stayed on that couch. Sometimes sitting, sometimes laying down. Always quiet.

There were bags under her eyes from the lack of sleep she had gotten ... every time she tried to sleep, she always awoke from nightmares. It was also pretty obvious she hadn't been eating as much as she should have ... though Rin had been doing a good job of making her eat anyway.

She was a mess. She really needed help. ]


( ooc: Okay, here's what's going down. I'm going to make separate threads for everyone who has offered to come in and watch the poor girl. If you are among the individual threads and want to thread out their respective shift with Kohaku, feel free, but if you don't think you want to, then that's fine, too. It'll be there regardless of whether or not you want to thread anything out. c: The log was made because there was some interest in one, so it's here if you want it.

And again, I know, it's RP, it's pretendy funtimes, but I want to thank everyone who offered to help Kohaku out, as her mun. Corny or not, it really does mean a lot to me that my muse here has so many amazing people to help her out when she needs it. ♥ )

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Rin

[spiria]

[keepsthefire]

[The other shifts had come and gone. The night was dragging on, and the only sounds in the apartment were coming from the kitchen currently as Rin worked on the meals for the next day - not only for Kohaku but for the people watching her, too. The radio was on low, quiet enough that if he wanted to try talking to her he could do so without raising his voice.]

... oi. Kohaku. Got a question for you, if you're up to answerin'.

[spiria]

[ Having so many people who cared about her seemed to be doing the trick ... though she wasn't 100% better by far, she was at least reacting more, and a little more life had come back to her eyes. She was starting to realize that she couldn't just keep doing this. It sucked, yeah, but ... she had to try her best to pick up and keep going.

It wasn't much, but when Rin asked her that, she was able to respond. ]

Hm?

[keepsthefire]

Uhm... you can... not answer or whatever, but I was wonderin'...

[Actually Vriska was wondering, but he had made a deal with her - get an answer and she'd drop the stupid "doormat" nickname.

But it had made him curious about it as well.]

When your heart shattered, how come you didn't just--...

[He didn't want to say "die" because that was half the reason she was in the state she was currently.]

I mean. How'd you survive somethin' like that?

[spiria]

[ She knew what he meant ... and that was something even she wasn't sure she completely understood. Spirunes were tricky things.

However, there was an answer she could give him. ]

There was ... one part of my spirune that remained with me when that happened.

[keepsthefire]

Oh... so it wasn't completely shattered or whatever?

[It's a wonder he can understand any of this, really]

[spiria]

Not completely. It was ... kindness, that stayed with me.

[ She's remembering. Yep. ]

Hisui and Shing figured it out when I spoke up and told Hisui not to be mad at Shing when he was blaming him for my spirune shattering.

[ Aw, she made herself sad again ... she bit her lip. ]

I guess it was that which kept me going, though. Spirunes are weird. Even those of us with them don't know everything there is to know about them.

[keepsthefire]

... that is weird. I mean, kinda cool, but weird.

[He pauses for a minute to finish something up in the kitchen, leaving a couple burners on low with a timer as he walks in to the living room to flop down next to her on the couch.]

I don't think there's anythin' like that in my world, but I kinda remember... after the sword broke and I wasn't... really myself for a while, there was this weird feelin' in my heart when Yukio brought the sword back to me. Like... somethin' warm and different from what I was used to feelin'.

... that sounds crazy, doesn't it?

[spiria]

[ Kohaku leans a little against his side. She was exhausted. Emotionally, physically ... she was still unable to really sleep without waking up from nightmares a few hours later. ]

Mm ... no, not really. The sword keeps your demonic side in-check, right? Maybe by fixing it, your brother was showing how much he loves you and cares about your well-being ... maybe you were feeling the love he has for you.

[keepsthefire]

[She wasn't the only one not sleeping, though Rin had finally managed to get more than an hour since everyone had pretty much forced him to get some rest. It didn't make him worry about Kohaku any less though.

He moves his arm, wrapping it around her shoulders.]

I think so, yeah... the person who repaired it said something about "the heart of a demon". Kinda makes sense, that it'd be split like that...

[spiria]

[ She relaxes a little into his hold, closing her eyes. She might not have been able to sleep, but she was able to rest her eyes for a while without seeing horrible gory things now, at least. ]

About the sword? I guess it makes sense, yeah.

[ She's quiet for a little bit, before she speaks again. ]

The last part of my spirune that was returned to me was love ...

[ She doesn't know what made her admit that. It was the only thing that came to mind ... ]

[keepsthefire]

That's a good thing to get back, even if it was the last...

[He smiles gently at her, rubbing her shoulder a bit. Even if she doesn't eat tonight, he hopes that maybe she'll sleep a little while he's there.]

[spiria]

Mhm ... I'm glad I was able to get it back.

[ She can't help but breathe out a bit of a weak laugh at that, though. ]

Shing would have made sure I didn't go without it anyway ... He was so determined to make sure I got my spirune back.

[keepsthefire]

[Oddly, Rin doesn't have anything to say about that. As soon as Shing comes up, his expression changes. He had been doing his best to hide how angry he is at Shing, but it's getting harder and harder to.]

Tch...

[spiria]

[ She opens her eyes slowly, and only about halfway. She's staring across the room again, and not moving her eyes from anything else ... ]

I realized something, earlier ... I could find him. I have a way.

[keepsthefire]

... you can?

[Don't mind the shocked expression. Rin DID try to find him on his own. It didn't go so well.]

[spiria]

Mhm. It's hard to really explain it, but we soma users ... we have something that connects us. A Soma Link. If I really wanted to, I could locate him, and know how he's feeling, too ...

[ She sighs. ]

He doesn't want to be found, so I won't go find him. But I could check on him that way ...

[ She's looking sad again. ]

Is it ... bad, that I want to check on him, but I'm scared of what I might find ...?

[keepsthefire]

... no, that's not bad at all. I don't blame you, for being afraid of that.

[spiria]

I want to ... but I'm really scared.

[ She clings a little tighter to Rin as she admits this. ]

[keepsthefire]

You... gotta do what's best for you, Kohaku...

[Even as he says it, he pulls her in to a proper hug. He doesn't want her to hurt anymore, but he doesn't really trust Shing at this point, even through something as abstract as a Soma Link.]

[spiria]

[ Meanwhile, she still trusts him completely, everything that's happened recently aside. ]

All I can think about is him, though ...

[keepsthefire]

I know... I can't answer this one for you...

[spiria]

I know ... just listening helps, though.

[keepsthefire]

I'unno... doesn't really feel like I'm helpin' much. Wasn't until I got everyone else here that you even started talkin' again...

[spiria]

It was because of you that I started to realize I need to stop moping around like a dummy ... you got everyone here to help, right?

So really, even though you might think it was the others, you were the one behind it all. And you've been here the whole time, and you're still here. You've helped more than anyone.

And yet, you suffered, too ...

[ she looks up at him seriously. she's obviously exhausted, and it shows, but she definitely looks better than she has been. ]

I don't know how you do it. You go through hell and back along with us, and then you're still able to help someone out when they're acting stupid. I'm sorry for putting you through that ... and thank you. For all of it.