[01] - that's thoughtful

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Who: John and vatheon
Where: Outside of Coral Corral #6
When: Monday Evening.
What: John thinking about different things that have happened to him thus far.
Style: Action. will follow if you post prose.
Status: Wide open.


[Anyone wandering around the Coral Corral neighborhood? Do you happen to be Jade or Dave that lives with him? Then you're going to find John sitting out by the sidewalk, playing with his orb of light. There is a breeze coming from it- the thoughts projected are in random spurts.

Right now it displays an image of Dad, with a cake (curse that batterwitch..)! John just smiles, he hasn't seen Dad since the house was uprooted. Now he see's Dave, Jade, and Rose. John is laughing- because it's each one of them at what John thought would be their respective homes.

Lastly. John sees himself on the quest bed, and bubble of light blows air at John's face. He can't remember or think of anything that happened well after this.

His bubble allows his thoughts to be projected to whomever is around.

Any crossing his path now will see '. . .Why couldn't I have been here earlier? Why didn't you stay?' . It's meaning is undetermined.]

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[John brings his knees up to his chest.]

Only part of my worries have to do with the session, you know. Part of my worries apparently lie here now too. [He took a deep breath. Dave might know about this already.]

Karkat told me he died. Some psychotic woman killed him, and he has this huge scar across his neck. It, I don't know Dave. It just makes me wonder why that psycho woman couldn't have came after me instead.

[John just shrugs.] I see it all the time now. Because I keep wondering how I died. Not that I particularly want to know or anything. I just hate the idea.

[knightime]

Egbert, you're just really fucking dumb aren't you. Seriously. What would change? Only the person who dies. How would you taking his place make a difference? Even if you're god tier, need I remind you that makes it a heroic death?

[He punches your arm.]

You got stabbed. Whatever. Why does it matter? Morbid curiosity does not look good on you so cut it out. [And he doesn't really want to talk about John dying. John dying is bad in his book.]

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Sometimes I can be really fucking dumb. But sometimes my really dumb ideas turn out to be incredibly good instead. It wouldn't have changed much, maybe he wouldn't have an over load of inner turmoil and despair.

I don't know, Dave. It's stupid and I can't figure out why it's bugging me. [The punch doesn't register right away; but when does more dumb thoughts just flood his mind.'Maybe the other me was a better friend, he probably knows more than me too. Dave is totally looking at this and i look so stupid right now, can't I just block out all of these thoughts?! Why why why why!]

I don't know why it matters. I remember [Oops, this scene is playing out in his head. So you get deets and a scene Dave.] ..sitting on my quest bed, being put to sleep. I guess whatever I felt in my sleep was large and overshadowing me- and wow I don't even know what I'm saying now. I sound like Rose.

Maybe what I was feeling was death? [Egbert is scared of death. Egbert is scared of leadership, because he could very well mess up and that could end up in his death and he would DESERVE IT. Deserving it also calls for permanent death.]

[knightime]

Egbert. You're getting dumber and dumber the longer you talk. He'll just have to deal with dying. It isn't like you can change the past, so stop being so fucking torn up about it. It isn't going to do anything but mess with your head anyways. [It's not like he's died a fuckton of times. He's had plenty of friends and people to help him when he got back. Fuck. Oh fuck. No. Stopping this line of thought now. This is dumb and I am not going to think about this shit again. Fuck. Losing stupidly to my own brain.]

You always look stupid, so you don't have to worry about looking any dumber.

Egbe-John. Fucking cut it out. If you haven't realized, all four of us kind of kicked the bucket by now. At least from my point of view. [My bucket being thoroughly trashed. Oh god damn it. Wow I suck at this. Shittiest friend ever. Let me just retain my title as biggest jackass.] That shit is over with. So stop freaking out about it.

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This place is messing with my head anyways, this place is fucking me over and I don't know why yet. It's just so complicated in my head right now and I haven't really sorted out what exactly is bothering me.

[Considering the fact that his thought bubble is just a big mess of squiggles right now because John is frustrating himself. But now he derails completely to the other topic at hand. This was a mess too. But his thought bubble just quiets down to a sullen blue color- it's how John feels about that particular situation.]

You go through so much more than me Dave, I shouldn't be complaining about this to my best bro. I don't even understand what you do for us most of the time and here I am...complaining. [John's bubble is literally screaming at Dave's by now, "No you're not a jackass! I'm just dim!!!"]

I'm not freaking out! Slow the assumptions there buddy!

[knightime]

Well then, sort it out. Because I am not a miracle worker and I have no clue what's messing with you, but tell it to fuck off. It's annoying and it's messing with my best bro.

[No, no no. He doesn't want this to turn into feeling bad for Dave jam or something.]

It ain't no thing. You had shit to do. I had shit to do. We all had our own agendas. It isn't even a problem. [I'm not talking about this ever. Nope.] I'd hate to see you try to figure out stable time loops. No offense, but that shit isn't for kiddies to play with.

You totally are freaking out about it.

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[But Dave you are a miracle worker, please do something about this when I knoooooow I can't. Auuuugh Dave you're a jerrrrrrrk.]

We all had shit to do, things to do, people and weird creatures to see galore. [We can talk about it one day, just us. You can totally feelings jam it out to me.]

I am not freaking out!

[knightime]

I'm not your fairy godmother, Egbert. Make your own miracles. [You seem to be fairly good at them honestly.]

We're not talking about it. i don't even know what it is. But it's not ever gonna happen.

You so are.

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[I'm at a loss right now. I don't know what to do.]

Yes we are. When you're comfortable. I don't want to force you to talk about anything.

[knightime]

[You always figure it out. And anyways, you got everyone here to help you. That's how it works.]

No we aren't. It's never gonna happen. It's not even worth talking about, so I don't know why we're making this a thing.

Shit just happens and we all roll with the punches. SBURB decided to throw some shit at me and I took it and gave a lemon back and told it to go make lemonade. [Wow that didn't even make sense.]

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[It's sorta weird Dave, okay. Just roll with me here..]

It's being a thing because we're best bros. Bro code states that you can trust another bro with your secrets and troubles you know. We uphold the best bro code here man.

[John is laughing, because wow that made no sense...]

[knightime]

[Dude, what are we even rolling with?]

It's nuttin' man. I don't even know what we're talking about anymore.

[He's trying to weasel his way out of this. He really is.]