[Izaya, too, thinks back on that fateful night and a part of him wonders what would have happened without it.

He doesn't really want to think about it.]

Hm.

[It's not that simple. Not at all. And Shizuo will probably never understand that.]

That's about like me trying to tell you to just not lose control. There's not an off switch.

Besides. You should totally encourage me and be like, 'I'll never hate you again, Izaya. You're too sexy for me to let go now that I've obtained you!'

[Yes, this is his way of making it less serious.]