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[flared]

Who: Axel (flared) and X-Butt (croceamors)
When: Shortly after this conversation
Where: X-Butt's hermit hole
Style: Action, but I'll follow whatever~
Status: In Progress/Closed

[Axel usually knows what to expect out of his and Saix's encounters by now. Even when they're in the best of "moods" something always seems to go wrong. He's right. They're always fighting... but better it be them than Axel's friends. So as much as Axel doesn't appreciate confrontations, he'll willingly take this if it means sparing Sora having to deal with this idiot.

So shortly after he ends the feed with Saix a Portal opens up in Saix's living room and Axel steps on through, seemingly calm but on his guard.]

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[croceamors]

[The look in his eyes gets more and more intense as Axel keeps talking, fingers curled into the palms of his hands tightly. By that last little comment, it looks as though he'd cleave Axel's head from his body with his stare alone if he could manage it.]

I would have gotten it back. I could have if you had simply stuck to the plan and not wandered off like a fool determined to seek death, and for that I can blame him as well.

[Because it had been his Nobody which had put the idea into Axel's head. Ultimately, the responsibility fell onto him.]

I had a chance to get back my heart if nothing else, and his actions ruined everything.

[flared]

What would it matter if you got your heart back? You wouldn't even be you anymore.

[Isa seems too far gone... It just wouldn't be worth it.]

[croceamors]

It would mean everything.

[The dog is starting to cower as Saix's voice starts to raise.]

I thought that was your problem with me, besides? That I was growing "distant", that I was acting more like 'Saix' than 'Isa'?

[flared]

Even if you earned your heart again, it wouldn't be yours.

[He looks away.]

You wouldn't be as you were.

[croceamors]

You don't know that.

[Now, it's his turn to scoff, fingers loosening a little bit.]

You're just scared of the future and changing- it's almost ironic.

[flared]

I'm fine with the future and change... but not when I know something bad is going to happen.

[He props his elbow up on the arm rest and rests his chin on his hand. He could just feel it- Saix wasn't going to be the same. Their plans to be recompleted wouldn't be worth it.]

[croceamors]

Just how did you know, then? What made you change your mind after so many years?

[flared]

[The color and spark in your eyes, never seeing you smile or hearing you laugh... Where did that all go?

But Axel just hangs his head and shuts his eyes with a small laugh. If Saix heard all that, he would just brush it off, call it stupid and insignificant. Of course he can't laugh, of course he can't smile like he used to. He's a Nobody...

But if Axel can do it-]

You wouldn't understand.

[croceamors]

[Whenever he gets like this, Saix nearly hates him for it. Acting like he's an idiot, like he's just plain incapable. Like he's never done a thing for him when everything has been for this damned idiot until he tossed him aside. Saix tightens his fingers into the cushions again and slowly releases them.]

Try me.

[flared]

[He glances at him out of the corner of his eyes, his head still slightly tuned away.]

Think you'd be able to handle it?

[croceamors]

[Saix leans forward, shoulders hunched and hands on his knees like he's prone to do when he becomes invested in something.]

I can handle anything you could think to throw at me.

[flared]

[That smirk returns to Axel's lips just before he pushes forward and stands from his seat. From there he makes his way over until he's a step away from where Saix is. Maybe he's ridiculous... but that's the be expected from Lea's Nobody, right?

Axel's quick. Arms held out, he attempts to push Saix back against his seat so he can get as close a look as possible to his eyes. Maybe he's just not seeing it... maybe he hasn't looked closely enough. But- he's not wrong.

He definitely can't see it anymore.]

[croceamors]

[Saix tenses as Axel gets up. One of the ways that made Axel such a good partner, the perfect person to go to places like Oblivion, was how unpredictable he could be. At some point over the years, Saix has realized not even he's immune to falling for a false sense of security around him. So he watches the other Nobody carefully, jaw clenched and eyes untrusting.]

[At the feel of hands suddenly pressing down on his shoulders, Saix automatically resists just out of habit. But after a brief second, he lets him. What will this prove? He doesn't know. It's not what he was expecting. But who knows what goes through Axel's mind. So Saix lets him, glaring right back into those bright green eyes he thought he knew.]

[He thought he knew a lot of things.]

[New Moon gives a low growl, ears twitching back and hackles raised, not sure of what's going on here. Saix just calmly places one hand on the dogs muzzle, not breaking eye contact with Axel. His own stare is hard and cold, untrusting and accusing.]

[flared]

[Axel just may be one of the few people who can actually get this close to Saix without worrying about what's going to happen to himself. This isn't the first time and it certainly won't be the last as much as the other might resent it. It's just- If he doesn't do this, if he doesn't break down the barriers or rile things up, how will he ever get his answers?

... But he still can't see it. He's reaching, reaching as far as he possibly can, but it's just not there.

As frustration settles in, Axel tightens his fingers into Saix's coat just the slightest bit, before ultimately his expression falls. Is it disappointment? Maybe... though he can't really understand how or why.]

We can sense the Light and Dark inside of others unlike any human can do. ... And I've known from the day we lost our true names that your Darkness isn't your own anymore. Something's tampered with it, turned you into this.

Can't you feel that too?

[croceamors]

[Another fight. Those are the words which go through his mind as Axel just stares all the harder at him, as those fingers dig in all the tighter. This is going to end in another fight.]

[It's almost a surprise when Axel gets that- odd look on his face. The words he decides to speak are just as strange.]

Perhaps you're just delusional and looking for an excuse. I don't feel anything out of the ordinary.

[flared]

[Hopefully it won't end that way... but he wouldn't put it past them at all. For now he stays where he is, still staring, before finally he lets go and straightens back up, his expression suddenly serious.]

I think I would know for sure when I've lost my best friend.

[As sad as it is to say, this is something Axel's not a stranger to.]

[croceamors]

[Saix straightens as well, all bitter pride and solitude. Those words make him glance away, briefly.]

How fortunate for you to realize something so quickly then. I should have had the foresight to do the same.

[flared]

[He doesn't particularly like it when Saix looks away so he ends up scowling a bit.]

You're not taking this seriously.

[croceamors]

I am.

[Oh, so he wants him to look at him again? Saix does so, and the shine in his eyes has taken an even more unpleasant look to it.]

I wish I could have realized what you really thought of our relationship ages ago. Then I wouldn't have had to waste ten years of my life on someone who didn't think similar, who would just run away in the end.

Maybe I could have done something worthwhile.

[flared]

[Axel's fingers tighten into fists at that this time.]

What, on your own?

[He scoffs sharply.]

Admit it. Even if you knew about all this beforehand, you wouldn't have lasted a single day without me at your every beck and call.

[croceamors]

You overestimate your own worth, little as it is.

[A sneer- followed quickly by a low bitter laugh.]

Perhaps I would have done better siding with Marluxia and Larxene.

[flared]

Then I would have killed you along with them.

[He tilts his head. Overestimate... maybe. But there's no denying that Axel's smart.]

[croceamors]

Would you even be there if not for me? Besides- there's no guarantee that you'd be able to kill me.

It may have gone the other way around, for all you know.

[flared]

My job was to eliminate traitors and if the Superior ordered me to do so, then I would.

[He crosses his arms then turns his back on Saix for a moment.]

Once again, you underestimate me.

[croceamors]

Please. I know more about you than anyone else, even that tool you call a friend.

[There's no real warning before he jerks his boot out to try and smash it into the back of Axel's knees before rising up to smash his elbow forward in hopes of getting the back of his head.]