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vatheon2012-04-27 12:45 pm
ex_ventus850) wrote in vatheon2012-04-27 12:45 pm
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The night has left this ten-folded grief
Who: ventus and anyone.
Where: Lakeside, in Somarium.
When: 4/27 after this thread.
What: Ven's just been given the bad news that his master's dead and has run off.
Status: Open.
Style: Action or prose.
The nightmare had been horrible. But bearable. As much as it'd played on his fears, it'd been about something he'd since overcome and emerged from already. But the news given to him by Mickey just a few short hours before had all but crushed whatever hope he'd had that he and his friends could go home to their master and be a happy family again. His master... was dead.
Gone. The shock that'd first greeted the loss was gone, replaced with a wrenching, twisting pain in his heart so great that it was difficult to breathe. The man had been the only father he'd been able to remember. The only adult who'd ever cared enough to be overprotective of him and teach him everything he'd need to know before he'd be permitted to go out and face the world on his own.
He'd ignored that wish blatantly. And accused him of horrible things, that last time.
That's your excuse for keeping me imprisoned here, isn't it?!
Forgive me. But you must exist no more!
Ven closed his eyes, clutching his shaking hands into twin fists at his sides as the tears started to fall. He was alone, away from everyone who might want to tell him that it was all right. As much as he appreciated it, he just needed to deal with this. And the fact that one of his friends knew, while the other... probably had.
And probably hadn't known how to tell them. He couldn't imagine, being in Aqua's position. he was a little mad at her for not saying anything, but... it would pass. Overshadowed by the grief he knew he'd be feeling for a long time.
At least he'd be able to get the worst of this out of his system while he was alone.
He didn't need to hear false words of reassurance right now. Everything was not all right.
And it'd never be the same again.
ventus and anyone.Where: Lakeside, in Somarium.
When: 4/27 after this thread.
What: Ven's just been given the bad news that his master's dead and has run off.
Status: Open.
Style: Action or prose.
The nightmare had been horrible. But bearable. As much as it'd played on his fears, it'd been about something he'd since overcome and emerged from already. But the news given to him by Mickey just a few short hours before had all but crushed whatever hope he'd had that he and his friends could go home to their master and be a happy family again. His master... was dead.
Gone. The shock that'd first greeted the loss was gone, replaced with a wrenching, twisting pain in his heart so great that it was difficult to breathe. The man had been the only father he'd been able to remember. The only adult who'd ever cared enough to be overprotective of him and teach him everything he'd need to know before he'd be permitted to go out and face the world on his own.
He'd ignored that wish blatantly. And accused him of horrible things, that last time.
That's your excuse for keeping me imprisoned here, isn't it?!
Forgive me. But you must exist no more!
Ven closed his eyes, clutching his shaking hands into twin fists at his sides as the tears started to fall. He was alone, away from everyone who might want to tell him that it was all right. As much as he appreciated it, he just needed to deal with this. And the fact that one of his friends knew, while the other... probably had.
And probably hadn't known how to tell them. He couldn't imagine, being in Aqua's position. he was a little mad at her for not saying anything, but... it would pass. Overshadowed by the grief he knew he'd be feeling for a long time.
At least he'd be able to get the worst of this out of his system while he was alone.
He didn't need to hear false words of reassurance right now. Everything was not all right.
And it'd never be the same again.
\o\
"I'm not hurt like that, don't worry."
But with recalling how he'd fallen asleep came the memory of why he'd been up there by the lake in the first place. Ven's smile faded, and he moved back toward the bed to sit down.
"I'm sorry I've worried you. Last night was just..." Awful didn't begin to cover it. And he had a sentence to finish.
"I had a bad dream. Then Mickey told me that my Master's gone. That's why I was out there."
Talking to people about his problems wasn't something he was accustomed to. It was different than explaining his past to Roxas or Xion. This was a lot more personal, and something he couldn't even begin to discuss with Terra or Aqua.
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He looked over at Ventus again. "You really liked your Master, I guess? There's always the chance he'll show up here, though. Even people we thought were dead... sometimes their hearts are strong enough to find their way here."
Likewise, Caden wasn't often in position to console someone, but in this case he was speaking from personal experience.
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Ven smiled faintly. "Nah. I loved him. He's the only Dad I can remember."
The idea he might show up here seemed so strange and out there to Ventus. He'd almost died, when Xehanort had taken away his darkness. But he'd been saved at the last minute. There was no saving Eraqus when the event had happened so far in the past. What would he be like if they brought him here?
Ven didn't know that people who'd died were as flesh and blood as Caden was.
"I don't really know how that'd work. I'd rather go back and save him. I was an idiot before it happened, and--" It was all my fault.
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He looked away briefly, then forced himself to look back. "I went looking for my own death. Twice, actually. And I got it both times, but I didn't get what I really wanted - when Vatheon brought me back like nothing had happened."
2/2
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It was Ven's turn to frown, though his expression grew somber, then sad in the span of one sentence. What had happened to Caden that he'd gone and done that? Or felt he'd had to?
He could feel the other boy's heart beating again his hand, and unconsciously, he pressed his hand closer to it for a moment before he looked back at Caden's face.
"Caden..." he started, and sighed. What did he say to that? "I'm glad it did. Otherwise I wouldn't have gotten to meet you again."
His gaze remained on his friend's face, while his own took on a somewhat bewildered look.
"No... I don't remember. I wish I could." His smile now was sad.
"It's gonna take a long time to deal with this. I... I don't know how I'm supposed to tell Terra. He's from the past. Before it happened."
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He looked hopeful, in fact, by that idea. "This room -" He pointed around. "It used to be yours, actually. I never got another roommate after that. So... it's still vacant. If you wanted to take it."
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But the idea of being even a little independent, while being able to get to know someone he'd been close with was appealing. Sora, Kairi and Riku had lived apart and still been best friends. He, Terra... and Aqua, should she return would be no different.
So he nodded, with a small smile. "Caden... thanks. I'll stay."