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[closed] 31 - Seigle

Who: Duke, Dhaos, Ioder.
Where: That house of theirs on the island.
When: Early monday morning
What: Duke is working on that feelings thing.
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[ He had finally gotten around to going back down into the bubble, because he had sworn that he would keep with this host club thing ~~even if he was having second thoughts now~~, which was in the bubble itself..

And it was true. Zelda had gone home. He kept as distant as he could without causing problems, and may have ended up wandering a great deal through the bubble, ending up in the forest quadrant again.

This, at least, would give him a reason for being late back at night. Even if he was awake when he would normally get up, still at the table. He was fairly sure that Dhaos at least, knew he hadn't been to sleep, but...

He ought to try to talk. Maybe. If he can get the words. ]

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[Ioder was an early riser no matter what, but he had been sleeping poorly the past couple of nights. He knew Zelda was gone, thanks to Darkleer's message about it, but he had been debating how to let Duke know.

Stumbling in to the kitchen that morning, hair a mess, yawning loudly, he spotted Duke at the table and stopped.

There was a moment of staring before he realized-- oh. He hadn't seen Duke since almost two days ago now. And he didn't look very good now.]

... so, I suppose you know already.

[ Duke hadn't really been expecting that as a conversation starter.

So he flounders a little bit, because the words that had tried to jump out first were "Zelda has gone home". Well, Ioder knew that.

So this is some fidgeting and then a nod. Yes, and he checked too. ]

[A tired sigh left the emperor, and he pulled a seat up next to Duke.]

I'm sorry. I know nothing of the past few months has been easy for you...

[ Duke doesn't have anything to say to that, because he is pretty sure there are other people who are missing people who go home but...

This is totally the worst couple of months for him in the bubble. ]

Didn't do anything.

[ Its mumbled to his arms. You don't need to be sorry, Ioder- ]

[Ioder places a gentle hand on Duke's shoulder]

I'm allowed to feel sympathetic, especially since she was my friend as well.

[ Is it a good thing that he doesn't twitch or tense at that? Maybe? Hopefully. ]

... Do... nevermind.

[ That would have been a really stupid question. Duke knows that feelings don't just poof because someone is as good as dead- ]

[Ioder would like to think Duke is more comfortable wit him now...]

What is it?

Stupid question. Know that this will change little.

[ Duke is being stupid and hurting inside a lot. It's okay, Ioder. ]

Well... ask it. Talk about it. No, it won't change anything, but leaving this all inside is only going to hurt you more.

Please, Duke? You know I'm willing to listen.

...As am I.

[And guess who's standing in the doorway, looking rather somber? You're not the only one who lost someone very important to them, Duke.]

[ Yes but he's pretty sure he's the only one with quite this mix of terrible feelings.

And Duke had started to figure out that there was a very little chance of saying anything in the same building as Dhaos without him finding out one way or another. ]

I... don't... think should feel this particular...

Why shouldn't you? Didn't we say that you're allowed to feel how you're going to feel? Whatever it is... I'm sure there's some justifiable reason for it, even if all it comes down to is that you cared deeply for her.

[Which can honestly be one of the most confusing feelings of all.]

[Dhaos takes a seat at the table as well.]

...Love is not a matter of "should" or "should not"; it simply is. What form that love has taken does not matter either... Simply that the more deeply you loved them, the more painful it is when they are no longer with you.

[His smile is far too sad to truly be of any comfort; merely a reminder that Duke is not the only one who knows the pain of losing a loved one firsthand.]

[ Duke is going to seek comfort from the wood-grain on the table now. It might work, or at least prevent him from having to look at anyone. ]

M'glad she didn't wake up to Guy missing.

[ That's a good thing, right? Being happy she didn't end up hurt. Maybe it helps with him being a terrible person for feeling the next bit- ]

Also glad because no chance of meeting and uncomfortable interaction and terrible to feel like that it all just hurts...

[ Nope saying that doesn't make him feel any better. Here is his shoulders going up and arms about his head like he can get things to make sense if he does that.

Clearly, if that was all it took, he'd have never had this mess to begin with. ]

I'm grateful for that as well... I know things have been difficult for her as well.

[Ioder frowned, glancing at Dhaos before scooting closer to Duke. He knew it might be uncomfortable for the other, but an embrace was all he could offer.]

Hurting is normal, even if you'd rather it not be...

We are all glad she was spared at least that much suffering...

[Dhaos turns his eyes to the window, or more specifically, the expanse of sky visible through it.]

...Perhaps this means little now, knowing we will likely never see her again, but... She is free of this world; free, and back in the land that she loves more deeply than anything else.

[They had understood that in eachother, more than anyone else save perhaps Duke. He knows perhaps it may sound a little insensitive to those who don't know the feeling, but... perhaps it will help Duke.]

...The pain is intense, but it will become less difficult to bear with time.

[ Sorry Dhaos Duke doesn't believe you. He's not curling away from Ioder, which is a good sign, but that weak snort-like laugh probably isn't. So maybe its normal to hurt, but maybe Duke isn't normal, because he is pretty sure it won't stop.

It didn't stop for Elucifur, and this feel-group for Zelda was something more-and-different.

He wants them to go away. There should be ways to get rid of them. ]

[Sorry, Duke. Ioder isn't going anywhere and neither are those feelings.]

There's no easy way to get rid of them, though I know we all wish there were...

[Dhaos didn't say the pain would stop; just that it would be easier to deal with in time.]

...At the very least, we know for certain that she is alive.

[At least this way, Duke need never see his beloved die as he had...]

[ Easier, meaning that everything is numb and so nothing hurts terribly but nothing is fun either? Well, that sounds familiar. ]

True.

[ Not his beloved, no, but his best friend? Yes. ]

But... if she comes back, and isn't the same Zelda... isn't that similar?

Somewhat. It's certainly not an easy thing to face. Though... in this case, if it does happen, perhaps that's a chance to start anew?

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Yeah he's not helpful sorry-

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Sorry I took forever to answer. ;w;

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