vatheon | This nightmare has no end

Entry tags:

ruca milda,
serph

This nightmare has no end

Who: Ruca Milda and you
Where: the park
When: evening
Style: Anything you want
Status: Open!

He had enough of this. He tired to ignore the voices, he really did! But he couldn't do that any longer. It was too much.

"You poor thing! There's no one you can trust."

It wasn't real, he knew about that! But the longer he kept hearing the more he was afraid. What if the voices were right? He shook his head wanting to mentally scold himself for even thinking like that, but that fear was still there.

He didn't know why, but he ran towards the park as if hoping that he can hide among the trees. But of course, that wouldn't work. It was just making things worse and worse.

"Look, Asura, look what has she done to you. You loved her so much and yet, she didn't hesitate to stab you in the end!"

"Just stop it! Leave me alone!!" he yelled exasperated, despite the fact that he knew it was useless. He really couldn't take this any longer.

Why couldn't it just end already? He didn't know what to do anymore... Running was useless. Yelling was useless. Everything was useless!

He fell to his knees and covered his ears with his hands, trying to block off the sounds.

"The story likes repeating itself. Surely, they will all betray you again!"

It was all useless.

Threaded | Top-Level Comments Only

[It's not uncommon for Serph to be in the park. He'd only intended to take a brief walk through it when he heard shouting. That voice...

He searches for the source, which doesn't take long, and approaches Ruca. Crouching, he reaches to lightly touch Ruca's shoulder and speaks so he can focus on Serph's voice.]

Ruca.

Roxas hadn't meant to be out past nightfall. He'd gone out for ice cream before going home and decided to eat it in the park, and then, well... He'd fallen asleep, which he seemed to be managing any time this week except during the night.

The screeming faerie woke him, of course, and he scrambled off the bench to head home, forgetting about portals for the moment.

That was when he heard shouting. The voice was familiar, although it took him a long moment to place it. Had he ever heard Ruca raise his voice before?

Roxas made his way towards the sound until he found his friend. "Ruca?"

_{[If Serph didn't touch Ruca's shoulder the boy wouldn't notice him. Most probably.]}

S-Serph...

_{[Ruca looks at Serph feeling even more helpless than before. He doesn't know what to do anymore and he doubts anyone could possibly help him.]}

[Once he has Ruca's attention, Serph lets his hand drop from Ruca's shoulder. Instead, he silently offers Ruca a hand to help him up onto his feet; it really wouldn't do to have a conversation while Ruca's on his knees like that.]

Ruca blinked and turned around, surprised to see Roxas. The silver-haired boy quickly stood up and shook his head while his gaze dropped to the ground.

"I-I'm fine." he said, his voice was shaky. It was so obvious that he wasn't fine at all. He never was good at lying, but right now he didn't know what he was supposed to do. He was too afraid to hear the voices again. He was too afraid to let anyone else hear them too.

He took a step back as if he wanted to leave, but then he froze in one place and barely stopped himself from looking around.

This time the voices were laughing at him.

_{[Ruca is about to take Serph's hand and stand up, when he hears the voices again.]}

Don't you remember what have they done to you? There is no one you can trust!

_{[The boy frowns and withdraws his hand.]}

"No, you're not." Roxas took a few steps closer, stopping when he heard that laughter, too. But when he looked around, he couldn't see anyone.

"...it's not real, whatever it is." He returned his gaze to Ruca and tried to smile. It came out a little shaky, because he knew his own fears were just as likely to make an appearance even while he was trying to help his friend.

[Being so close to Ruca, Serph hears the voices. He doesn't ask any questions. Not yet. But his expression doesn't change and his hand remains outstretched.]

Even if you hate me, I will still help you.

"I know... I know about that..."

But still ignoring it wouldn't help. Nothing could help him anymore... or at least that was how he felt right now.

Ruca took a few more steps back avoiding Roxas' gaze.

"There's no one you can trust." the voice said and Ruca shook his head trying to dismiss it.

_{[Ruca looks at Serph surprised.]}

Hate you...?

_{[He shakes his head.]}

I could never hate you... B-but...

_{[can Serph really help him...?]}

Roxas didn't try to move any closer just yet, letting Ruca have his space.

"It helps some, if you're not alone. At least, I thought so."

Should he say anything about the voice? He wanted to think Ruca could trust him. He was trustworthy, wasn't he?

[Serph's hand remains unwaveringly extended.]

You don't need to trust me to allow me to help you.

A moment had passed before Ruca deiced to finally agree to this. He just had enough of these voices telling him that he couldn't trust anyone. It didn't help that the voices sounded so familiar to him.

But he couldn't let them win. They weren't real and running or trying to hide definitely wouldn't help him either.

"You're right." he looked at Roxas then looked away again. "Sorry..."

He really didn't mean for it to sound like he didn't trust Roxas. Because he did trust him! Or at least he always thought he did.

Serph...

_{[You're actually making him feel a little bad. Ruca sighs and eventually takes Serph's hand.]}

...Thank you.

Roxas just tilted his head. "What for?"

It wasn't like Ruca himself had said anything about trusting or not trusting anyone. Roxas was just quick to doubt himself.

[Serph helps Ruca up onto his feet.]

What happened?

"W-well... just now, it sounded like I didn't trust you..." he answered looking apologetic.

"Because you should not trust him." the voice could be heard a moment later, but this time it was clearly a female voice. A very familiar voice.

Ruca froze and looked around. In the distance among the trees he could see someone.

"Why...?"

That also wasn't real... right? She couldn't possibly be here.

_{[Ruca sighs a little.]}

I just... can't take it anymore.

"...that's okay. I mean, it's not like you trust everybody with everything."

There were things Roxas still hadn't really told Ruca. It wasn't really that he thought Ruca would react badly or betray his confidence, it was just... he was scared, still.

"You can- trust me to be here, though."

He closed his eyes.

"I know." he paused. "No matter how much you trust someone you're still afraid to tell them everything... right? I know. I feel like that, too."

"Of course. Nobody would be able to understand that's why you can't tell them everything. People are all the same and none of them is worth any trust." the female voice said. Ruca had no doubt who it belonged to by this point. But this time, almost like she emerged from the darkness, the woman showed herself nearby Ruca. She was exactly the same height as him, her eyes were almost the same as his, but a little more green and unlike Ruca's, her gaze was cold and piercing. Bitterness was clearly written on her face. She had long red hair and was very beautiful. She looked almost exactly like the goddess Inanna.

Ruca didn't even glance at her this time. She had to be the part of the illusion.

Roxas did glance over, unfamiliar with the woman who appeared there, but then he looked away again. He didn't know who she was, so that meant maybe it was something Ruca was afraid to tell people-- and he wouldn't want people seeing if they could help it.

"I don't know what you're scared of saying, but I get it. There's things that- people just didn't accept, back home. And I don't wanna risk it."

A sad smile appeared on Ruca's face.

"We sure have a lot in common, don't we?" he frowned. "And even though I know that people here are different from those back home... I know that nobody will think badly about me because of what I am and yet I'm still afraid."

"They are all the same." the woman said. "To them we will always be worse than monsters."

Roxas smiled a little, too. Their situations really did seem so much alike.

"But you know... There've been a few people here from home who- changed their minds about me." He scratched his head. "I still haven't- really told anyone new, but it's nice knowing that. And I think maybe I will sometime."

[Serph's voice is still its usual calm and quiet.]

Please elaborate.

Ruca watched Roxas for a while, then he smiled a little more, suddenly feeling somewhat relieved. Of course things could change. And maybe, just maybe he was worrying for nothing...

"...Thank you, Roxas."

He turned around to look at the woman.

"Mathias." he addressed her. "I... I want to believe in people. Even if I'm afraid... even if I'm scared to tell them everything..."

"They will only hurt you again." the woman replied coldly.

Ruca frowned. He wanted to tell her she's wrong, but he hesitated. He was afraid of getting hurt, afraid of being betrayed, afraid of being hated... The relief he felt a moment ago disappeared somewhere.

Threaded | Top-Level Comments Only

Page 1 of 2

This nightmare has no end

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject