"Yeah I do." Ruca was here. Despite the fact that he'd deliberately isolated himself from any and everyone in order to deal with this alone, he'd come out here and stayed. Not even his best friends had done that, though they were used to Ven needing his space where nobody else here was.

The fact that he wasn't alone was driven home when Ruca's hand didn't leave his arm. The blond relaxed, and choked once. It was still hard to keep from crying.

"I don't want to believe he's gone." It was admitted brokenly, and he couldn't look Ruca in the eye.

"I just don't."