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[420]

Who: 420 & stayb100ponyboy
When: Backdated to the day of Signless' death.
Where: Their hive? Karkat's hive? Somewhere in the middle?
Style: No brackets. The brackets cannot contain this angst.
Status: Closed. So very closed.



He's tired. He's really really tired, and it has nothing to do with sleep at all. Taking care of Karkat is never too much for him, but that don't mean it isn't a lot. Especially like this, right now.

Making use of a natural lull in their conversations and mutual care-taking, Gamzee slips out the front door though he doesn't close it. At least, this way he can hear Karkat if he wants or needs him. He leans back against the wall next to the door, sliding down to sit on the ground, not caring about the state of his clothes. His shirt is already covered with reddish stains anyway. Digging through his pockets, he quickly finds his SFC, typing out a simple as fuck message to the only person he really wants to see right now.


HeY.

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[stayb100ponyboy]

Equius himself has been staying close to Nepeta, and he simply assumes Gamzee is with Karkat. He personally hasn't been too traumatized by everything, seeing as he's not close to Signless, but taking care of Nepeta has drained him.

D --> Hey
D --> Are you with Karkat

[420]

Gamzee wishes he had that luxury, but alas, Signless had become too big a fixture in his life that he can just shrug off his death.


YeAh.
Me aNd mY BrO, jUsT BeEn lIkE TrYiNg tO KeEp sHiT CoOl tOgEtHeR.
YoU?

[stayb100ponyboy]

Equius is more worried about Darkleer, really.

D --> That's good
D --> You two helping each other that way
D --> I've been with Nepeta

D --> It's been a rough couple of days

[420]

Equius, Gamzee never knew you had such a talent for understanding stuff.

BeEn aLl lIkE ThE MoThErFuCkIn pIt, YoU MeAn.
FuCk.
I'M So fUcKiN TiReD.

[stayb100ponyboy]

D --> You haven't been sleeping, have you
D --> Do you want me to come over
D --> So you can take a nap

[420]

BeEn.
AiN'T My hUsK WhAt aLl bE FeElIn iT.
My pAn jUsT Be rEaL FuCkIn tIrEd oF ShIt lIkE ThIs.

CoMe oVeR AnYwAy?
JuSt cHiLlInG HeRe oUt iN FrOnT Of kArKaT'S HiVe.
HoWs mIlEnKo bEeN?

[stayb100ponyboy]

D --> Okay
D --> I'll be over in a few minutes

D --> Milenko is fine
D --> He misses you, though
D --> Do you want me to bring him over to see you

[420]

YeAh.
PlEaSe.
CoUlD YoU LiKe gRaB A BrOtHeR'S PaInT AnD FaShIoNaBlEs tOo?


He really needs a clean shirt, okay. And a clean face. And a hug. Mostly a hug.

I always forget I have this icon, which is a shame because I love it so

[stayb100ponyboy]

D --> Of course
D --> We'll be right over

About five minutes later, Equius comes walking down the street towards Karkat's house, moving slowly so the fuzzy little goose behind him can keep up. Milenko is far too fragile and squirmy for him to pick up, so he has to walk. Fortunately, although the little one prefers to follow Gamzee, with a little coaxing and some chocobo greens, he'll follow Equius too.

Of course, the moment Milenko spots Gamzee, he charges past Equius, peeping loudly, wings held out for balance, running towards his adopted mama.

he must have gone through so many husktops

[420]

That gets the first good smile and laugh out of Gamzee in what feels like forever. Catching the little peeping gosling, he pulls him to his chest so he can press a kiss to the top of that little head. "hey, lil' man. Missed ya."

[stayb100ponyboy]

Equius smiles too; Gamzee and the little goose are adorable together, and watching them bond is the first time he's been happy in a few hours too. He walks up and sits beside his matesprit.

"See. I told you he missed you."

[420]

Gamzee tucks the little goose against his chest, letting Milenko peep and burrow into his shirt like he hasn't seen him in ages. He, meanwhile, turns his head to bury it against Equius' shoulder with a shudder, leaning against him. "Fuckin' missed ya too."

[stayb100ponyboy]

Equius leans in as best he can. "I missed you too." It's hard work, taking care of a distraught moirail, as he's sure Gamzee understands.

[420]

Harder still when you are just a distraught.

Wrapping his arm around Equius' shoulders, he pulls himself onto his lap to lean against his chest, face buried against the side of his neck. Milenko is still held on his lap, completely unaware to what is going on (HEY) but not particularly caring either now he can burrow back against his momma.

[stayb100ponyboy]

Oh. Oh, okay. Equius now has a clown and a goose on his lap. He's pretty sure he saw a porno on Grubtube that started this way, but he's guessing that's not what Gamzee has in mind. He lifts his arms, slowly and carefully, and circles them around Gamzee's waist, making a loop around him.

"How are you holding up?" Silly question, really, but he can't help but ask it.

[420]

No. For once we can be really sure that is not something Gamzee has in mind. Especially not with the baby on his lap, for shame, Equius.

"It ain't fuckin' fair. He didn't all were deserving of that." If there was one troll in this entire bubble that did not deserve dying, surely it was Signless.

[stayb100ponyboy]

"No, he didn't." Equius knows enough about Karkat's ancestor to know that much, at least. "But he'll be back soon. He can set everything straight."

[420]

all Gamzee gives is a faint nod and a soft sniff as he leans closer, dropping one hand down to his lap to absently pet Milenko. To him Signless couldn't be back soon enough.

[stayb100ponyboy]

There's really nothing else Equius can say in this moment, so he moves his arms a fraction of an inch closer and gives Gamzee a soft, chaste kiss on the ear. Then he just holds him, him and his goose, giving him all the comfort he can through the closeness of his body.

[420]

Gamzee isn't quite sure when they start, but soon enough he has big, fat purple tears rolling down his cheeks, smearing his face-paint and soaking into Equius' shirt. They are quiet, like his pan is way too exhausted to make a huge motherfuckin' circus out of it. Instead all he does he turn his head a little and bury it tighter against Equius' neck, shaking slightly against him.

[stayb100ponyboy]

Equius wishes he could hold Gamzee better, especially once he realizes he's crying. Instead, he turns his head so he's facing his matesprit, and blows warm air into his hair, making low, rumbling noises in his chest.

[420]

That's okay. If Gamzee had really wanted someone to hold him while he cries, he would've found someone else to cry to. Instead just leaning against Equius provides him with enough support. Besides, getting warm air blown into his hair is familiar. Hoof beast lusii and goat lusii have very similar ways of dealing with sobbing little charges.

Of course, back when he was little, one great puff of the ol' goat's breath against him could occasionally send him tumbling onto his back, but that would make him laugh so it all worked out in the end.

[stayb100ponyboy]

Wow, seeing Gamzee cry like this is starting to upset Equius too, and he sniffles a little before blowing more warm air in his hair. He wishes he knew something else he could do to make him feel better, but blowing on his hair is the best he can do. He just hopes Gamzee's lusus did the same.

[420]

Gamzee notices the little sniff, and he tries to pull back again and calm down, rubbing furiously at his eyes. "Shit. Sorry. I didn't all fuckin' mean to."

[stayb100ponyboy]

"No, it's okay." Equius manages to get a hold of himself and tries to smile gamely at Gamzee. "You're really upset about this, huh?"