I am.

[Oh, so he wants him to look at him again? Saix does so, and the shine in his eyes has taken an even more unpleasant look to it.]

I wish I could have realized what you really thought of our relationship ages ago. Then I wouldn't have had to waste ten years of my life on someone who didn't think similar, who would just run away in the end.

Maybe I could have done something worthwhile.