But I am ready! Why do you say I'm not ready!? I'm learning words and other things and I'm trying really hard to be the age I look so why..?
[No! Damnit, he's tearing up and it just makes him angry to show how much it hurts that Johnny's rejecting him. Maybe not outright, but it's still rejection and it's not what he wants and now the whole date is ruined.
He doesn't wait to hear Johnny's answer to his question, shoving the vampire's hands away roughly and pushing himself to his feet.]
I don't want to anymore! Everything's ruined! I-I'm trying really hard and you still don't- W-why am I not-?!
[He's too frustrated, to angry at himself and Johnny, to disappointed to finish any of those thoughts out loud. He can feel his eyes brimming and he hates it. He doesn't want to cry, he doesn't want to show weakness.
Sola turns away and rubs his eyes furiously, that small voice he'd been overlooking quietly saying that maybe this is exactly why he's not ready.]
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[No! Damnit, he's tearing up and it just makes him angry to show how much it hurts that Johnny's rejecting him. Maybe not outright, but it's still rejection and it's not what he wants and now the whole date is ruined.
He doesn't wait to hear Johnny's answer to his question, shoving the vampire's hands away roughly and pushing himself to his feet.]
I don't want to anymore! Everything's ruined! I-I'm trying really hard and you still don't- W-why am I not-?!
[He's too frustrated, to angry at himself and Johnny, to disappointed to finish any of those thoughts out loud. He can feel his eyes brimming and he hates it. He doesn't want to cry, he doesn't want to show weakness.
Sola turns away and rubs his eyes furiously, that small voice he'd been overlooking quietly saying that maybe this is exactly why he's not ready.]