[He looked away and moved as far from shin as the room allowed, it was going to be hard enough explaining all of this in the first place, he didn't want to see Shin's reactions on top of that.]

Loved him? I thought so, not as much as I love you, of course...but I thought I cared. But...towards the end there..I...I don't know what I was thinking how I could- [A sigh.]

Remus was a werewolf and I've known that for years, it's why James, Peter, and I can change like we do. We wanted to keep him company when he changed each month...and that's why the basement of this house is the way it is.

But...the werewolves were working for the other side...and...I got caught up in the paranoia and the fear and...I doubted him. Years of friendship and loyalty went out of my mind and I doubted Remus' trustworthiness. I was stupid. A complete git.

So, no, Shin, it might have been Peter who sold them out, but it was still my fault. I never should have- [He cut himself off and kept his eyes glued to anything that wasn't Shin. He didn't want to go into all the 'what ifs' and 'should haves' right there...he'd keep those with him for another time.